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Friday, January 28, 2011

Moi Has Fallen In Love With...

Since Moi got to paradise and began my immersion into the high society of Retirement Ville, Moi has been trying to find the F.O.Y.(Fountain Of Youth) but from the looks of things here, well let me paint you a picture!

Everywhere I go there are people with gorgeous dark rich deep tans, swim suits in all colors, shapes and sizes. The people here are much, much older then Moi…which makes Divine Man the youngest and most alluring of all the community members! Moi is the fairest one of all! Aside from the worn bodies, the beehive hair-do’s, the men with the thick gold chains and tattoo’s from the Navy, the die hard shuffle board fans, Moi has fallen deeply in love.

I know, I know, you are asking yourself “how could Divine Man fall in love with someone in Retirement Ville?” Well I tell you…it is not someone, but something!

Have you ever heard of the dazzling, sexy and sleek fashion garment called the “Moo Moo?” Moi absolutely has fallen in love with the Moo Moo. What a brilliant piece of fashion! Moi has spent the past 2 months seeking out a Moo Moo. I have been to Target, Macy’s, Kohl’s, Dollar General, Big K, Marshall’s, Wal~Mart, and so on and so forth. Days have gone by, days turned into weeks, weeks turned into months and finally after much sweat, walking, and a few cramps Moi found it! The most beautiful Moo Moo that was ever created on this planet!

It was the only one in the store, hanging all alone by itself and it was chanting these words “Divine Man, Divine Man, make me yours, make me your Moo Moo!” This was fate, this was our destiny, to become one! To unite satin draped all over my fabulous body. My body of perfection was now complete! I now can walk around and feel proud, honored, invigorated, and alive!

Everyone will be jealous of my satin multi colored Moo Moo as I parade it around with my head held up high, with my white Jackie-o’s, red flip flops and my big sun hat!  Moi can do anything in my Moo Moo!

Moi has for words for you: EAT YOUR HEART OUT!

As they say, when is Rome, dress like the Romans!



 

Thursday, January 27, 2011

A Love Beyond Time VI

The sun was setting out over the blue waters of the Gulf Of Mexico, the wooden deck below my bare feet was warm from the day’s sun rays. It was smooth as glass and had a pristine shine to it as I walked toward the railing to see the setting sun.

As I got closer to the railing, it was then that I saw him sitting on the bench off to my right. He was remarkable with his rich light brown hair. The waves in it were silky as he turned his head in my direction. As he stood up I noticed he was almost as tall as I, maybe a few inches difference. He was wearing a black tuxedo and had on snow white gloves and was holding a hat in one hand and roses in the other. It was then that he saw me emerge from the shadows, walking towards him. His face lit up, a smile spread from ear to ear, his lips were perfectly shaped, and his blue green eyes were warm, brilliant and inviting. His physique was slender yet with power and stance.

We were getting closer and closer to each other, my heart was racing as I knew who this man was. This was Astor, my Astor. I was his and he was mine. As my eyes adjusted to the brilliant sky overhead and the surreal vision of Astor in front of me, I turned and noticed my reflection in a large window. I was startled to see who I was, what I looked like and what I was wearing. My hair was dark deep brown with warm tones, it hung to my shoulders, with a slight wave. I wore a bathing suit, squared and fitted with a soft plush robe and a cuddly towel draped over my exposed shoulder.

Apparently I was under-dressed. As I approached Astor I could not contain the rapid beating of my heart, it was loud in my ears, my hands were trembling and my knees started to go weak and as I was an arms reach from him. I felt my knees give out and my legs started to crumble as he dropped the roses and wrapped his arms around me and pulling me close into him. Our eyes met, and our lips became one.

I had so many questions, ideas, and thoughts buzzing all at once. How did I get here, was I really even here? Was this real? Was I alive? Am I dreaming all of this? All I knew was that I did not want to take my eyes off of him. I did not want to lose him again. He was my world, my heart, my destiny.

We were soul mates and our love was beyond time.

Sunday, January 23, 2011

Look At Me, Look At Me!

Have you ever wanted to change something in your life, or maybe something about yourself?

Moi has many, many, many times wanted to change something. Now I am sure you are asking yourself “If Divine Man is perfect why would he want to change anything?” well sometimes even us “perfect people” have a reason or need to do so. Let me share with you, “Picture It”…

It is a delightful sunny morning and Moi has been in paradise for a few weeks enjoying the sun, the lush greenery, the breezes off the ocean, all the beautiful bodies, and the gourmet foods! Moi is walking along my block humming a tune by another fellow Divine One…Bette Midler, entitled “I am Beautiful” when a matured, cranky, smokers voice shouts out “good idea, you walking off that big ole’ ass of yours” and as these words pierced my ears like razors on a chalk board I whirled around to stare down this rude, haggard, cataract infested person who obviously has bad vision. Because as you know Moi’s booty is perfect, perfect, perfect!

Anyways, as I stand there with my hands on my hips ready to pounce words of defense to this…well…old lady with rollers in her badly dyed red hair, a moo moo barely covering her enormous “girls” that apparently have no “support” and are now slapping just one of her many rolls of plump filling. Her toes are exposed and the hot pink polish is chipped on her over grown yellowing toe nails that seem to be curling over the edge of her feet. And if her toes are not enough I check out her face which is weathered and leathered by all the years of sun worshipping and her eye shadow screams out “hooker blue” along with her wrinkled fuchsia covered lips that are bobbing up and down clasping onto a cigarette for dear life!

Moi just stands there and looks at this creature and thinks “god please, do not let me end looking like this! Help Me, Help Me!” and then decided this person was so not worth my time or energy. And with that I turned back around and continued to walk, now even faster until I was running for my life, running to remove my big ole’ ass!

Once I was back to my paradise palace I decided take real notice of what that “lady” said to Moi. As I looked into the mirror at my booty, I realized she was right. In all my frolicking, libations and gourmet lunches, my booty had gotten a bit bigger. With this realization I decided to begin a change, to be better then I am, and what better time to start then right now, right here.

Moi has just completed Day 1 of my total body cleanse, and only have 6 more to go. It will be a lonnnggg week of fasting and watching everything I put in my mouth. But when Moi is done with this cleanse and then my dieting goals I will be better then I am. Look at me, look at me, I am changing!

Sometimes it takes a friend or a total stranger to help, to understand. Or sometimes the only friend you need, is yourself.

Look at me, Look at me
I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
I'm trying to find a way to understand
But I need you, I need you
I need a hand
I am changing
Seeing everything so clear
I am changing
I'm gonna start right now, right here
I'm hoping to work it out
And I know that I can
But I need you, I need a hand

All of my life I've been a fool
Who said I could do it all alone
How many good friends have I already lost?
How many dark nights have I known?

Walking down that wrong road
There was nothing I could find
All those years of darkness
Could make a person blind
But now I can see

I am changing
Trying every way I can
I am changing
I'll be better than I am
But I need a friend
To help me start all over again
That would be just fine
I know it's gonna work out this time
'Cause this time I am
This time I am
I am changing
I'll get my life together now
I am changing
Yes I know how
I'm gonna start again
I'm gonna leave my past behind
I'll change my life
I'll make a vow and nothings gonna stop me now

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=o-SuB-ZO_e0

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

A Murderous Doorway: Two Spirits Awaiting To Cross Over

Is the supernatural real? Do Ghosts really exist, and if so are there such things as Medium’s?

As you know from a few of my stories that I have written since starting this journey into blogosphere land Moi has had many of “encounters” with the other side. Years ago while looking for the F.O.Y. I found myself aimlessly looking for a place to call “home” or at least a base of operations to work from. I came across an old historic Mansion in Small Town America(the Midwest) that sat erected on a hill in a rather dormant positioning. It lacked life, vitality, and was a doorway to the past. A doorway to a murder of historic proportions.

As I walked up the walkway to the rather large tall weathered door and just in that instant where ones skin(hand) makes contact with the door handle I was immediately slapped with flashes of another time. They were glimpses into the past. The house was enormous and the remaining furniture was covered with white sheets, while spider webs danced from arm to arm of each chandelier. As I made my way along the main level of this mansion I took notice to the dining hall table for it was the only piece of furniture that was uncovered. It was naked, bare, nothing on it to be seen. We(the Agent, Brady and Moi) then proceeded to the once grand and active kitchen and then back to the front spiraling staircase that stretched all the way to the third floor with had once been a stunning ballroom. Again as I opened yet another door, this time it leading into the ballroom I was rushed with more flashes, people dancing in lavish ball gowns and tuxedos and gloved hands. And just as fast as the images appeared, they were gone.

We then made our way down the servants staircase, which made me freeze at the top. I was frozen in a place of fear, pain, and a feeling that I knew only to well, it was of death. I knew that there was more to come. And it was when we opened the basement door. The Agent and Brady headed down first and then Moi, and as my right foot stepped onto the top step I knew without a doubt that I could not go down there. I was overtaken with ugly feelings biting away at my core, tearing me up inside and exposing my vulnerable side to the demons of the past. Right before my eyes as if I were right there 100 years ago I saw what had happened in this old house. There were 2 thugs of which both were known by the great man that had owned and had the mansion built, they were beating him bloody, taking turns as their fists’ made contact with his face, tearing and ripping him apart until his lifeless body sank to the basement floor. In that moment I realized I was now all the way down the stairs and standing in front of a old worn door, the cellar door which had been sealed for decades. I knew as I touched it what was on the other side. As I stood there with my trembling hand on the wooden door again, I was transported back to that awful night and this time I was forced to watch the brutal rape and murder of a beautiful woman wearing only her under garments. She was the master’s mistress’/maid and her body was never discovered. However I knew where it was, where she was thrown into a broken pile.

When I came out of it, and back to that present moment I hurried upstairs and when I ran past the servants’ stairs, again I felt that familiar coldness and found myself back in the Dining Hall followed by the Agent and Brady. He asked “Divine, are you alright, you look pale and tired?” I remained silent until I reached the table, which now had a photocopy of a old newspaper article on it. This was not there the first time I saw this table. The article told of how the Master of the house had fallen down the servants’ staircase one late evening after much libations, dancing and frolicking with many guests in the third floor ballroom. However, I know knew what really had happened. And he and his mistress were finally heard, and could finally cross over to the light.

I went back to the house a few days later and all was at peace. It was then that I noticed an old sign in the bushes that read: Home Is Where The Lies.




Doorways are interesting, sometimes they can open ones soul to a new journey, the past, or they can propel you to a whole different plane, one with sadness and pain or that of peace. Regardless, you must embrace it and take the next step.

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

A Love Beyond Time V.

I stood there just gazing in total astonishment at this most beautiful and perfectly shaped gem my eyes have ever seen. It was a traditional cut, the diamond in the center was just full of sparkles, thousands of them that gleamed even in the dim lighting of the setting sun. Circling the magnificent diamond were 10 light blue gems that were flawless and the band was made of gold(a bit worn from the years of captivity) and as I stood there marveling at this token of eternal love I noticed an engraving inside the band. It read: A Love Beyond Time

As I read these words aloud a feeling(s) of familiarity overcame me, as if I had seen this impeccable piece of love before. In that moment I felt compelled to put it on my ring finger? Why? Not sure just that I knew it was meant for me? And how could that be? This was meant for Astor’s true love, not I. The ring slowly slid onto my finger fitting like a glove! Perfect!

Astor was there beside me, I could almost feel his breathe on my neck and his hand holding mine. He had wanted me to find this ring, so that I could find it’s keeper, maybe a relative of his? If one even were alive anymore? Or maybe he just wanted me to keep it. It felt as if I were the chosen recipient of this ring. As I turned back around to gather up the little box from the sand I never heard the wind switch, the clouds rolling fast, or the thunder and lightning begin.

It all happened so fast, the lightning struck the tree high above me causing a limb to split from the tree and in a sudden step backwards as to not get crushed from the large limb I tripped on something and fell backwards. As my head met the rock it was like a hickory nut falling furiously to the ground as it’s outer shell burst off it only to leave it exposed, laying there, lifeless.

As my body lay there still almost with no life left in it as the droplets of water seemed to fall all around it, my body, the body that seemed to no longer really house my soul as my eyes adjusted to my surroundings and my heart fluttered with a newness, with an exciting feeling of peace and joy. Love.

I was no longer on Indian Rocks Beach 2011, but on a ship standing on the upper deck overlooking the magical waters and off into the nearby distance was a shoreline, a beach. Indian Rocks Beach…
 
 

Friday, January 14, 2011

A Love Beyond Time IV

As I followed the footprints to the large tree I walked around it wondering why Astor had lead me here to this spot, this tree? What was so important and special about this tree? Was this “their” special place? I had hoped to find a heart with initials carved into the tree. As I began to look closer at the tree I noticed something very odd at the root area of the tree, it was partially covered by sand, dirt, shells. As I carefully wiped the object free of the sand, dirt and shells I realized it was an old wooden box that had grown halfway into the tree.

It was surreal and almost like a scene out of a movie like The Princess Bride or something. As I sat there looking at this wooden old decaying box I wondered if there was anything in it? This must be what Astor wanted me to find. It must be.

So how do I get the box out of the tree without hurting this beautiful old tree? I got up and ran to my car to get my emergency road kit out and some tools. I returned to the tree and got out some tools in order to bust open the exposed end of the box. All the while my hands are starting to shake and beads of perspiration are beginning to trickle down my brow, my heart is beating rapidly and my mind is racing with wild romantic ideas. Maybe it is a love letter expressing his eternal love, or what if it is a ring, a picture or a locket?

As I work feverishly to loosen the end of the box I am unaware of the smoldering fog, the still air and the warmth around me or the one lone star twinkling high above me. The end of the box is starting to come off with a little bit of pressure and prying. There it is open! Finally! As I wipe the perspiration from my brow I just sit there and stare at the box. Frozen almost, frozen in the moment. I can feel Astor’s presence near me and a calmness as I reach my left hand into the box and feel around for something, anything. My fingers find something, it is a small box. It feels soft and velvety like, worn bare in some places and I pull the little box out and open it up and just stare at the object inside…
 

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

How Do You Make Love Outlast The Passion?

How do you make love outlast the passion? Does the heart just need steering?

Divine Man is finally going to (try to)truly open up about this very topic.

“Picture It” it is a lovely spring day, the year is 1998 and Moi is starting my Spring Break. We met after many weeks online, emailing and talking on the phone. At first Moi thought…”cool a penpal of sorts/phone friend” but unbeknownst to Moi 13 years later after all the starts and stops, we keep coming back to these 2 hearts. We have had a very romantic, complicated, hurtful, disbelieving, trusting with your life, full of twists and turns, lies, friendship and a love that will never die.

Think of such romances as: The Phantom Of The Opera, Cinderella, Pretty Woman, My Big Fat Greek Wedding, The Indecent Proposal and Cybil all wrapped up into One…oh and Titanic! That is how I would describe our relationship.

Now, Moi is practically perfect in every way, kind of like Mary Poppins, hell we even have the same umbrella! Seriously though, you may ask “how do you keep the love alive even after the passion is faded or gone?”

We have had bitter ugly “divorces” and yet we always seem to find our way back together. I always get Diva Girl, the car, and all the furnishings. Never any alimony, but hell it could be worse. In Moi’s experience make- up sex is wonderful. You should never end a day resenting each other.

What has been a significant tool to our friendship/relationship has been that we allow change, growth, adventures and always knowing that we have each others back(and why not, mine is perfectly shaped) supporting each other dreams, goals, and what we each value. People have to be open to change, and grow together in it. It can be scary and rough, and it also can be very exciting. Love grows, it develops, and it deepens if you let it. So you don’t have the passionate kisses you once had when you first met. But what you do have now is a solid and strong never ending love. What is love really? Is it a one niter? A week, a month long love affair? Is it something 2 people share naked? No. It is so much more then those things, it is knowing each others’ strengths and weaknesses and still loving beyond them.

If Moi had one wish to make that would come true for others, it would be to help others understand what love is. And how to tend to it, nurture it, harvest it, and embody it with your heart, the very center of your being.

Make a divine connection, and shine together even after the flame is out!